Another letterMy dearest Koschei,
I can't believe how much I'm missing you after only a few days of being away from you. Days which when spent with you fly past in an instant now seem to crawl, as though trying to prolong the time until I see you again. I don't know how I'm going to manage the long weeks when we have to be apart, and would much rather be at the academy with you than stuck here alone. I wonder if you really do miss me in the same way. If you'll still love me after the months apart the way you did when we last parted company. I know even now that I will. That nothing could ever stop me loving you. Not now, nor in a hundred years, a thousand years or millions more beyond it. So since I can't tell you in person on the at least daily basis we're used to, I thought I'd write you this letter to tell you that I love you, so if you ever miss me, you can read it and know I'm thinking of you always.
I barely know where to start my love, for there is so much I love about you, and I j
MusicThe Doctor sat on board the TARDIS, at a grand piano, playing, just playing why he had a piano aboard the TARDIS he still wasn't quite sure, but he did love playing it, as he always had. All it was missing was someone to duet with him but only one person knew how to do the perfect duet with him they could both improvise and yet it still worked perfectly. He smiled, as memories danced to his mind of times long since past
He never did find out where his Koschei managed to get a piano from, but nor did he particularly mind he'd always wanted to try one out ever since he'd read about them in one of his books about Earth. He'd always wanted to experience the sounds they produced first hand, and had obviously let it slip to Koschei. Or more likely gabbled about how wonderful it would be to him for a good hour or so. It had been a month or so if you counted in Earth time, as he was prone to, since he'd got his mind set on the idea when Koschei told him he had a s
Letters...My Dearest Koschei,
It has been far too long since I saw you last, and it will be far too long before I see you again. And I know when I do it will not last long enough. It never does. The years have torn us apart, both physically and I think emotionally When I see you, I can never tell you what I should, what I wish I could and so I write you this in the hope that I can somehow express what I feel what you still are to me, despite the years of separation, even though you've changed from what you once were, your true self lost in the darkness of your core I've missed you every day, every minute, every second since you left, and unless things change, I know I will for the rest of my lives. You will perhaps never know that I still feel this way, for while you endanger other's lives, hurt and destroy, I can never show it, and if that means I must push you away, deny my feelings and hide all emotion for you then it must be that way, but know this I never wante
Can't sleep"Kos "
"Yeah Thete?" mumbled an almost-asleep Koschei from beside him.
"Can't sleep " came the response, tired and upset it sounded like he'd being crying. Koschei was immediately wide awake, pulling his best friend into his lap and cuddling him close.
"Oh my Theta, what's wrong?" he asked, cradling him gently in his arms, as Theta immediately knotted himself around him, clinging tight and burying his head in his chest, silent for a moment, as if unsure what to say.
"It's well you will always love me, won't you Kos?" he asked, barely audibly, so quietly in fact that Koschei only just caught it, his hearts stopping for a moment.
"Of course I will my Theta Sigma, how could I not love you " he tried to smile, running a hand through Theta's hair softly, "you're everything to me, you know that What could ever make you think ?"
Theta swallowed before answering, a few more tears starting to flow as he clung to Koschei, head still buried in his chest
EmbraceTheta was sat in his room, waiting waiting for that familiar knock, for the footsteps, the sound of that voice which he loved so much, the laughter, and then the sight of his wonderful Koschei coming through the door, with that brilliant smile which made his hearts skip a beat He sighed, it had been a long holiday, and Koschei's family had forbidden him seeing Theta, but soon class would start and he would once again be able to see his Koschei, hold him close and fall in love with him all over again. It was far too long since he'd last seen him term time, they were inseparable, never letting go of each other, and barely out of each other's beds, exploring feelings and desires they had for no one but each other and then the summer came and they were torn apart, destined to only have contact via letters, and that was nowhere near good enough Rassilon he'd missed him so much, his smile, his eyes his voice everything about him that made him love hi
Christmas ContemplationsThe Doctor sat aboard the TARDIS in a rare moment of still, contemplating it had been another Christmas, another disaster narrowly averted and now he was once again alone. Oh yes, his adventure aboard the Titanic had been fun. Had taken his mind off things but there had been loses once again far too many losses of people who should have survived should have been saved Bannakaffalatta Morvin and Foon Van Hoff Astrid Peth Lost to save others lost like so many had been he hadn't really had the time to contemplate not properly at least since his last encounter with the Master Since he'd died in his arms since he'd lost the only one he truly loved He stopped himself. Was that really true. Did he still love him? Was he so devastated by his death, by losing him after a year of torment and torture, because he loved him? And deep in his hearts he knew it must be his Koschei God h
All for youI've been searching for answers,
Longing for a sign,
Looking out for someone,
But now I realise it was always you.
I have gifts, I have talents,
But what good are they alone,
Without someone to inspire?
So now I look to you.
Maybe others have more to offer
More skill, better looks, more money,
But the little that I have left,
It's all for you.
You're everything to me,
And there's nothing I could ever give
That would be enough. I give all I can
I give myself to you...
Putting Things Right, Part IXDoctor: *Loves the way he strokes his back, how securely he holds him, and nuzzles his chest a little in appreciation* *Smiles a little more, loving his kisses too* Hmmmmmm, this is wonderful
Master: *Smiles again as he nuzzles his chest, and keeps stroking slowly down his back* *Nods slightly* It is... every moment with you is wonderful, especially somewhere like this...
Doctor: *Closes his eyes for a moment, so he can just listen to the beating of his hearts, as he'd done so many times when they were younger and nods a little* Yes I love every moment spent with you *Opens his eyes again after a minute or so, and looks out over the water again, loving the view, and how reminiscent it is of Gallifrey, the good parts of it anyway *
Master: *Sighs deeply, switching his gaze every so often from the fantastic view to the beautiful form of his Theta in his arms* *Slowly moves the hand rubbing his back up until he can stroke his hair instead, and can almost tell what h
Putting Things Right, Part VIIDoctor: *Smiles a little, feeling how peaceful he is, glad that he can get that rest, because he could just hear how much he needed it, and feel it too when he was in his mind* *Starts thinking again, but not letting anything upset him too much, even though it does hurt a lot, and will for a while to come, trying to think more sensibly about it now he's rested, rather than just despairing*
Master: *Stays asleep for a long time, needing it, and not having to worry or hurt for a while* *Is just glad for the rest, and the Doctor's arms still around him, protecting him*
Doctor: *Smiles, images suddenly coming back to the front of his mind which really cheer him up, his Kos, sunlit on that planet, the light glittering in his eyes, looking so beautiful, so perfect the pictures of them dancing, in each other's arms, so in love running through the snow after that first date, feeling so young and innocent again* *The images are a welcome change from the thoughts he'd been happening,