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It'll Be Okay - Part XI

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Master: *Can sense a couple more barriers starting to form and concentrates hard on stopping them, really not wanting him to hurt again* *Isn't even looking at what he's doing, but can tell he's worried and finds himself tense once more*

Doctor: *Feels him tense, but knows there's not a lot he can do, other than keep holding him protectively and reminding him he loves him, until this is sorted for good* *Continues past the previous site of the drums, and even further down, never having been this far into his mind, not because the Master wouldn't let him, but because he'd had no need to, and not wanted to invade his privacy*

Master: *Can feel him moving even deeper into his mind and involuntarily shudders, knowing he's never been that deep into the part of his mind that even he rarely visits, the part mostly where he locks away regrets and fears*

Doctor: *Feels his shudder and immediately stops, not wanting to make him uncomfortable, cuddling him a little closer* *Softly* ~You okay?

Master: *Snuggles closer as well, glad to stop for a minute and try to calm himself again* *Nods slightly, not wanting to stop him if he needs to see that part* *Swallows* ~Yeah... it's fine...

Doctor: *Knows this is hard for him, and gives him as long as he needs to calm again, before mentally nuzzling him again* ~It's okay, I promise… *Slowly continues on, nearly in the very deepest part of his mind, where he hides whatever it might be he chooses to, the perfect place for whatever has been bothering him to hide* *Can see one area of darkness just ahead, choosing to move to that first, finding himself getting more nervous the closer he moves to it*

Master: *Nuzzles back, curling up in his mind again, knowing that it's impossible for any barriers to form this deep in his mind now he's got him in this far* *Can sense his nervousness and curls up tighter, mentally clinging again*

Doctor: *Swallows, and does his best to keep calm and comforting for him, but really is dreading what he could find* *Moves over and finds the darkness almost impenetrable, probably another defense to stop him getting to it* *Stops to work out what best to do*

Master: *Hides even further into his mind, although is of course unable to stop sensing his emotions and thoughts* *Feels him stop and finds his breathing getting quicker* *Whispers, half not wanting to know the answer* ~What is it?

Doctor: *Nuzzles his mind again, just wanting to keep him calm for now, knowing that given how entwined their minds are, him panicking could be disastrous* *Quietly* ~Darkness… I can't even see what's in there it's just… black… there could be anything in there…

Master: *Nuzzles back, doing his best to stay calm* *Feels his hearts skip a beat as he says that and swallows, mouth dry, not even knowing what to think for a second* *Clings more, getting so scared, not knowing what to say back*

Doctor: *Clings back, trying his hardest to be confident and calm, to look after him* ~Shhhh Kos, it's okay, whatever's in there I will find out, and I will do anything to keep it from hurting you… I love you…

Master: *Hides deep in his mind again, still holding onto him so tightly* *Once more snuggles into the warm familiar safety of his Doctor's mind, curling up to try and calm down* *Eventually whispers* ~I know you will... I love you too...

Doctor: *Takes a strand from his mind and offers it to him* ~Keep hold of this… that way I've got a way back if I can't find it because of the dark… my lifeline if you like… and if I know you're holding it… then I'll know I'm safe… *Smiles, trusting him completely as usual*

Master: *Can't help but smile too, taking the strand of his mind and clinging to it so tightly* ~I won't let go... *Physically holds onto him tighter as well, wanting to always keep him safe*

Doctor: *Smiles, relaxing a little about what he's about to do* *Softly* ~I know… *Swallows, heading towards the darkness* ~I love you… *Plunges in before he changes his mind, really hoping he knows what he's doing*

Master: *Is glad to feel him relax, and curls up protectively around the strand* ~I love you too... *Can sense him moving into the darkness and then can only just feel him, it's so dark and deep*

Doctor: *Finds he can only just feel the conscious part of his mind, and that scares him… that whatever it is in here, it's creating a defence that's so effective it blocks out most things* *Keeps going anyway, feeling the Master curled around the strand he's left behind keeping him calm* *Tries to think of everything good that's happened, everything he loves about his Koschei, in an attempt to dispel some of the darkness, and smiles when he finds it works a little, only in a very small way, but enough for him to head towards where he thinks whatever is producing this is*

Master: *Splits his concentration between holding as tightly as he can to the strand and focusing on not losing track of where the Doctor is in his mind, not wanting either of them to feel alone while they do this* *Can still see flashes of his thoughts and realises what he's thinking about, and immediately does the same, thinking about all the places they've been, the wonderful dates, everything he loves about being with him...*

Doctor: *Is grateful when he suddenly feels his mind more strongly, knowing he must be trying  too, and always feels better when he can feel him more* *Continues on with more strength, catching his thoughts, which just strengthen his own* *Suddenly comes out of the intense dark, and halts suddenly, seeing shards of something, presumably what he'd shattered when he got rid of the drums last time, all gathering, not very strong in themselves, at least not at the moment, having used a lot of strength to try to stop him getting there, but now he is, it's only a matter of time, so the sooner he does something the better* *Doesn't know how best to get rid of them completely though, as if he shatters them the way he did before it seems they'll just gather again…*

Master: *Feels him stop and doesn't even breathe for a few seconds, instinctively knowing he must have found it* *Swallows and whimpers slightly, concentrating hard on the mental link so he can hear him* *Whispers* ~Doctor...?

Doctor: *Physically holds him more closely when he stops breathing, almost instinctively* *Just hears him, and concentrates hard too to send something back, although barely knows what to say* ~Kos… *Really doesn't know what to do about it yet though, so waits for him to say something else*

Master: *Whimpers quietly again and can just tell he isn't sure what to say, how to explain* ~What... what is it? *Physically can feel himself shaking and clings tighter*

Doctor: *Just wants to do everything to make him better, so he doesn't have to be scared any more* *Quietly* ~I think it's what's left of… them… *Can't even bring himself to say it, knowing he'll understand anyway* ~But I -will- get rid of them… I promised and I will…

Master: *Forces himself to hold onto the strand even tighter, trying so hard not to panic, almost unable to believe he'd just said that* *Feels his breathing and hearts speeding up again and shakes more violently* ~So they're... still there? *Whimpers louder, terrified*

Doctor: *Just wants to rush out of this bit of his mind and smother him in love and comfort and try to make him feel better, but knows that in the long run that will be of no help at all, so stays but tries to send as much as he can through that link back to him* *Quietly, trying not to get guilty about it* ~Yeah… what I did before… it shattered them… but the pieces stayed… so I'll have to try something new… but I will do -anything- to find a way… I told you, I won't let anything hurt you again… you're safe in my arms and I'll take care of you… always… *On an impulse, starts thinking about all those good things again – the dates, the beautiful places they've been and his beautiful Koschei, directing them towards the shards – if bad feelings fuel them then maybe good ones are the way to get rid of them*

Master: *Shudders again, clinging tightly* *Just hates the thought of them still being in his mind when they'd thought they were gone forever, feeling tears spill over* *Can sense him thinking about all the good times again and tries to do the same but can't when he now knows they were there all this time, trying to take over him again* *Lets out a sob of fear and sadness, wondering whether they'll ever leave him alone... he should have known it wouldn't be that easy...*

Doctor: *Physically cuddles him as close as he can, still just wanting to comfort him and make him feel better* *Whispers* ~Shhhhhhh, Kos… shhhhhh… I know… *Can see them getting stronger with his fear, and tries to strengthen his good feelings, to keep them at bay before they do anything that might hurt him* *Can tell what he must be thinking* ~Just think love, we managed to have such wonderful times -despite- them, they were perfect, and don't let anything taint that… *Can see them shrinking away from his good thoughts and grins* ~Please love, if you can, direct everything good in you to me… every good thought… everything… we can do this together… I can't do it without you my love…

Master: *Shakes and cries in his arms, unable to stop, just clinging to him and the strand as tightly as possible, feeling so completely vulnerable* *Whimpers, trying to focus on his voice and do as he says, not wanting him to be on his own* *Reaches for every good thought and memory he can, all those perfect moments... their first date, Theta giving him the necklace which right now he can feel around his neck, Theta in the TARDIS doorway while they were at the beach, Theta with the sunlight in his hair, Theta lying beside him in the grass... sending everything he can think of to him, though still completely terrified*

Doctor: *Knows he's terrified, but has to continue on, trying to do the comforting physically while using his mind to concentrate on getting rid of them once and for all* *As he sends his good thoughts, starts to surround the fragments in them, smiling slightly as he sees them start to whither a little, as he'd suspected in the same way that bad feelings made them stronger, good ones weaken them* *Quietly* ~I think it's working my love…

Master: *Sobs again, reaching desperately for more memories, concentrating so hard it hurts* *Remembers what he'd shown him before, the thoughts he'd sent to him when trying to show him how much he loves him and repeats all those again and again, everything he loves about his Theta... the way he holds him and makes him feel safe, hearing him tell him he loves him too, the feel of their interlocking fingers, how he loves it when he takes him on dates, how stunningly beautiful he is... every little thing that makes him love him so much*

Doctor: *Keeps directing the thoughts he's sending round the drums, making a stronger and stronger barrier of good memories, and love, thinking himself of everything he loves about his Koschei… the way he cares for him, even when he's the one who needs caring for, the way he smiles and makes the world seem right, feeling his hand placed over one of his hearts to feel it beating, and returning the gesture, every time he tells him he loves him, and that he's beautiful, and knowing how beautiful he is too… everything that makes his Koschei perfect to him* *Sees them withering more, and knows that this won't destroy them, or get rid of them, but it will make them weak enough for him to do something more permanent about them* ~Thank you, that's wonderful… *Wants to be encouraging him as much as possible, although has a horrible feeling that they will start to fight back, and it will be Koschei, not he, who is the target*

Master: *Is so glad to hear that, as he's finding it more difficult to reach the memories and send them to him, and it really is starting to hurt* *Keeps trying but is beginning to feel mentally drained from the effort it takes to both keep hold of the strand and find memories to send across to him*

Doctor: *Can feel he's getting tired, and whispers* ~It's okay, relax… I've got you… just concentrate on staying conscious for now… *Is now worried that because he's emotionally drained he'll be an easier target, and knows he'll need to work fast* *Experimentally reaches in and grabs one of the withering shards, pulling it to his own mind and then casting it out as fast as he can, instinctively knowing when he has that it's gone, but really hoping that didn't hurt him at all*

Master: *Is relieved when he says that and stops trying to find memories, returning his remaining energy to holding onto the strand* *Whimpers a little* ~I'm tired... *Curls up further, then feels a sudden sharp pain in his head, lessening after a few seconds but still enough to make him cry out in shock*

Doctor: *Quietly* ~I know… but if I don't do this now we'll have to go through it all again… *Feels so bad when he cries out and instinctively starts to massage his temple gently* ~I'm sorry, I'm sorry love, I should have warned you… are you alright? *Hates the seeming distance between them, even though their minds are linked, because of the darkness there, and hopes it lessens as he gets rid of the drums slowly*

Master: *Wishes their minds were entwined again, so he could hide properly...* *Whimpers* ~Hurts... *Is suddenly paranoid he can feel the strand slipping away from him and clings even tighter, tears running down his cheeks again*

Doctor: *Swallows, having dreaded that, but can see no alternative* *Quietly* ~What do you want me to do my love?

Master: *Sobs slightly, so scared, just wanting to sleep and not have to go through with this* *Whispers* ~I... don't know... whatever you need to... just stop them... *Almost feels the strand moving away again and panics slightly, doing everything to hold onto it* ~I'm scared I'll let go...

Doctor: *Bites his lip and nods* ~It might hurt love, but I'll make it as quick as possible and try not to hurt you too much… *Swallows, knowing exactly what he means, but then gets an idea* ~Tie it to something strong in your mind… then you can keep clinging, but if it slips it'll still hold strong…

Master: *Shakes again, but knows he'll do his best not to hurt him* *Nods slightly too, then tiredly forces himself to pull the most perfect memories he has forward... when they danced together, their first kiss, the moment when his Theta had proposed to him, the first time they made love... the strongest memories he has, tying the strand to them as best he can, then curling up and clinging to it again*

Doctor: *Smiles, tugging slightly when he senses he's finished, and feeling it firmly in place* ~Now try to relax my love… and whatever thoughts they try to send into your head, ignore them… it won't be easy, but please hang in there love… *Swallows, knowing that this is going to be a huge challenge for them both*

Master: *Sobs again, knowing there's still so much they'll have to go through before this is over* *Nods, trying to calm himself a little* *Whispers* ~I love you...

Doctor: *Nearly sobs himself hearing him do so again, but holds back, and is glad to distantly feel him calm a little* *Whispers back* ~I love you too… *Reaches for the next shard, repeating what he'd done with the last one, and casting it out, even weaker than the previous one, the thoughts he's left surrounding them doing their job* *Can see they're trying to do something, but won't know what until he gets the Master's reaction to it* *Also knows that he can't wait, moving on to the next piece*

Master: *Feels that sharp pain again, crying out even though he could tell it was about to happen, but it doesn't quite fade completely this time* *Suddenly feels a horrible coldness around him and shivers, even though he can feel the Doctor's arms around him, and clings to the strand again, scared of losing the connection and with it the safety and warm familiarity of his mind* *Knows they're trying to get to him, to make bad things happen to him, or to make him do bad things like they'd done before...*

Doctor: *Hears him cry out, and so wants to do something to help him, but knows he can't take any of his attention off this if they're going to work through this, just continually cuddling him and hoping he can cope with whatever they're doing to his mind, but at the same time, knows that if he can't cope he'll tell him* *Pulls the next piece out, throwing that away too, and repeating for a couple more, trying to find a technique to absorb some of the pain as he does so*

Master: *Tries to concentrate on the fact that the pain means the Doctor's getting rid of them, but it still hurts, still not fading, just building up in his head* *Sobs, almost able to hear them whispering to him like they used to, feeding ideas and thoughts into his mind to make him do terrible things, telling him that he's cursed, and no matter what his Doctor does they'll never be gone, Rassilon was just too powerful, and though he might be able to silence them for a while they'll always come back in the end...* *Whimpers in protest, sobbing more violently, weakly arguing that his Doctor can and will fix him, though can hear the blood rushing round his head in time with his hearts, echoing that rhythm...*
Part XI of It'll Be Okay, the new epically long RP by *Jemiyah and *aragornsgirl333 <3 <3

:iconaragornsgirl333: as Ten
:iconjemiyah: as Simm!Master

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Part II: [link]
Part III: [link]
Part IV: [link]
Part V: [link]
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Part VII: [link]
Part VIII: [link]
Part IX: [link]
Part X: [link]
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Part XV: [link]
Part XVI: [link]
Part XVII: [link]
Part XVIII: [link]
Part XIX: [link]
Part XX: [link]
Part XXI: [link]
Part XXII: [link]
Part XXIII: [link]
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