My Everything - Part XVI

Doctor: *Shuffles back a bit, still holding him close, so he can lean against the wall and hold him more protectively* *Reaches to wipe some of his tears from his face so gently, trying to hide the fact there's still tears on his cheeks, hating to see him so upset* What's bothering you so much my love…?

Master: *Lets him move, still trying to get as close as he can* *Feels so much love for him as he wipes his tears and tries again to calm down* *Shakes his head slightly, not knowing where to begin* It hurt me...

Doctor: *Lets him snuggle as close as he needs to, just wanting to be there, to look after him however he needs* I know, love I know it did… I just wish I could have stopped it from doing so sooner…

Master: *Sighs shakily, gradually starting to relax a little in his embrace* It hurt... and I hate it... I hate what it made me do... what -he- made me do... *Feels another flash of anger, but doesn't have the energy to react to it*

Doctor: *Sighs too, cuddling him closer, and can just sense he's angry, through the link, cradling him closer* I know you do my love… I know… but he's gone now… suffering punishment for his crimes in the Timelock… in -hell- where he belongs… *Feels an anger towards him too… he had no right to do this to anyone, but especially not -his- Kossy…*

Master: *Nods slightly, tears slowing, starting to calm down a bit* He deserves it... *Falls quiet for a few moments, letting his breathing slow too* Um... *Tries to think back to the start of their conversation* I wish... all those things I did... I wish it wasn't a part of me... I wish it had never happened...

Doctor: *Nods* He does… *Can't help it, can't help hating his existence, after he found out he did -that- to him, that he made his Koschei suffer just so he could live a bit longer… and even then, only long enough to end time… he can't even understand why he'd do that* *Bites his lip* Oh Kos… *Can't help but feel a few more tears falling at that* I know, I know you do… and if there was some way I could undo all the things we both regret I would but… we'd be different men… would we appreciate each other as much if there hadn't been so many hardships? We can't change what happened, but we can learn from it… I could make you forget it ever happened…

Master: *Swallows again, and nods slightly, knowing he's right about that* I know... *Panics slightly at that last bit though* No! No, don't make me forget... *Shudders* I hate it, and I wish it wasn't part of me... but I -need- it... so I don't go back to that... so I know you made me better... *Whines slightly, frustrated again, not knowing how to explain it properly* I don't want to be different... it shouldn't change... *Doesn't even know if it makes any sense to him*

Doctor: *Cuddles and strokes his hair again, trying to make him calm again* I know, Kos… I know… I would -never- do that to you… because I -know- it's important to remember… I wanted to make a point… we can't change it, and we shouldn't… don't think about how you hate it, think about how you're better, and what you've learned…

Master: *Relaxes slightly as he says that, relieved* *Swallows, and nods again* You made me better... you took the noise away, you made it stop hurting... *Nuzzles his shoulder* And I learned that you loved me all along, no matter what I did... *Relaxes a little more*

Doctor: *Smiles slightly and nuzzles back* Yes… you think about that, you remember that I always loved you, no matter what, and always will… and that we've always come back for each other in the end… he could torment you, but he could never keep us apart…

Master: *Nods again, continuing to calm, curling up further and closing his eyes* I always loved you too... *Sighs* We don't ever have to be apart again... he won't hurt either of us any more...

Doctor: *Smiles slightly, resuming stroking his hair* No, never again… I'm yours forever, and nothing and no one could ever change that… I'll protect you, care for you, comfort you, love you for the rest of eternity…

Master: *Sighs again as he strokes his hair* Mine... *Clings to him a little tighter* And I'll do the same for you... *Nuzzles him a little, worn out, but knows he wouldn't be able to sleep again*

Doctor: *Reaches up to wipe the last of his tears away, sighing and cuddling him close* Yours… all yours… *Continues stroking his hair gently and cuddling him* I love you… and always will…

Master: *Repeats quietly, loving how he wipes his tears* Mine... *Sighs as well* I love you too... I'll love you forever...

Doctor: *Repeats once more too, equally quietly* Yours… *Smiles at him a little* You okay now my love?

Master: *Snuggles a little closer and nods slightly, then looks up at him* *Still quietly* Sorry...

Doctor: *Smiles a bit more seeing him nod, so glad he is* *Looks back when he says that* What for love?

Master: *Curls up slightly more, nuzzling into his shoulder* For... for getting so upset over it... *Swallows* And for... losing control like that...

Doctor: *Nuzzles him back again* It's okay for you to get upset over it love, as long as you don't try to deal with it alone… and *Sighs a little* I will admit it did scare me a bit when you lost control but… I'm just glad you're alright now…

Master: *Nods slightly and clings tighter to him again, not liking to know that he'd scared him* *Mumbles* 'm sorry... I... didn't mean to...

Doctor: *Strokes his hair more, and leans to kiss him softly* I know, and it's alright, it really is… as long as you can trust me, and let me help calm you down, it's okay… as long as you're okay in the end, that's all that matters to me…

Master: *Kisses him back, and nods again* I trust you... *Sighs, snuggling more* Thank you...

Doctor: *Smiles and snuggles back, holding him tight in his arms* Anything for you… anything at all…

Master: *Manages a smile too, much more relaxed now* *Loves how close he holds him, and just keeps clinging back to him, not wanting to let go*

Doctor: *Won't let go, or stop holding him this close until he's okay to, wanting him to feel safe, protected and loved* What does my Kossy want to do now?

Master: *Snuggles even closer, nuzzling his neck a little, and smiles again when he calls him Kossy* *Sighs* I want... some tea, and then to finally go and book the restaurant... *Smiles a little more*

Doctor: *Nods slightly and smiles more too, loving the idea* Of course love… to the kitchen then? Or do you want to snuggle a bit longer?

Master: *Shakes his head and clings tighter, still not ready to let go* Want to stay here...

Doctor: *Thought that might be the case, and nuzzles him gently* Of course love… we can stay here as long as you need to…

Master: *Relaxes slightly again, and nuzzles him back* *Softly* Love you... *Leans his head against his shoulder and closes his eyes for the moment*

Doctor: *Smiles* Love you too… always loved you… always will… *Is glad to feel him relax, and starts to run his hand gently over his back to help him relax more*

Master: *Smiles again at his words, hearts melting* *Gives a soft sigh of appreciation as he runs his hand over his back and leans on him a little more*

Doctor: *Smiles, letting him lean, just continuing to try to keep him relaxed, and happy… wanting to look after him, until he's okay again*

Master: *Calms further, definitely feeling better now, and adoring everything he's doing for him, loving that he wants to look after him*

Doctor: *Just keeps holding him, glad that he is okay, really not liking to see him upset, and especially not -so- upset and angry that he can lose control like that, but glad to be there for him, to help him get over it more quickly*

Master: *Continues to relax against him, and eventually sighs deeply, opening his eyes and looking up at him*

Doctor: *Sees him looking up at him, and smiles, leaning down to kiss him gently*

Master: *Smiles too, and kisses back equally gently* *Slowly loosens his grip on him to show him he's okay now, but still doesn't quite let go completely*

Doctor: *Runs his hand through his hair again, and smiles, feeling him loosen his grip* Want to go get some tea then?

Master: *Smiles more as he runs his hand through his hair, and nods* Yeah... *Leans up to kiss him gratefully again, then shifts a little, reaching for his hand*

Doctor: *Kisses back and smiles at him, taking his hand, and holding it firmly, but letting him move first, when he's ready… especially since he's curled up on top of him*

Master: *Squeezes his hand and smiles back, slowly moving off him, already missing the warmth of his body* *Sits up properly, staying close*

Doctor: *Squeezes his hand back, stretching a little, and shuffling back to the edge of the bed, to be sat next to him* *Stands, and offers his other hand to help him up*

Master: *Smiles more, and takes his other hand and stands too* *Sighs, nuzzling a little* *Softly, wanting to say it again* Thank you...

Doctor: *Smiles too, pulling him closer and hugging him properly, holding him close again* Anything for you Kos… I'm glad you're okay now…

Master: *Wraps his arms around him too, holding him back* *Nods slightly* *Still softly* I'm fine... love you...

Doctor: *Loves hugging him like this, so much, just feeling him in his arms, and his arms tight around him* *Smiles* Good… I love you too… *Leans to kiss him once more*

Master: *Smiles, hugging him so close* *Can tell how much he loves it through he strand, and kisses him back, then nuzzles again* My Theta...

Doctor: *Smiles at him, nuzzling back* Yours… forever… *Sighs, and then reaches for his hand again*

Master: *Smiles again, taking his hand back, lifting it and pressing a kiss to the back of it* *Sighs, definitely feeling a lot better*

Doctor: *Blushes slightly when he kisses his hand, and nuzzles him again, before turning towards the door* So, tea then… *Grins*

Master: *Nuzzles back, and nods* Yes, tea... *Lets him lead, staying as close as he can to him*

Doctor: *Smiles more, starting towards the door, stopping to open it for him, grinning, loving to feel him stay so close to him*

Master: *Blushes a little as he opens the door for him, the gesture always making his hearts leap* *Squeezes his hand again, just so in love with him*

Doctor: *Smiles, following him through the door, and squeezing his hand back, just loving to do things like that for him so much*

Master: *Sighs again, and moves to let his head rest against his shoulder, still just wanting to feel him as close as possible*

Doctor: *Smiles, letting his head rest back against his instinctively, knowing he wants to feel him close, and always wanting to be close to him too*

Master: *Squeezes his hand once more when he rests his head back against his, loving him so much for it* *Briefly closes his eyes again, just enjoying the contact, the sensation of being close*

Doctor: *Sighs, continuing to lead him through the corridors, staying slow so they can be closer together*

Master: *Smiles, opening his eyes again, so much calmer now* *Suddenly remembers the flash of blue energy he thought he'd seen in his mind, but decides not to mention it yet*

Doctor: *Runs his thumb gently over the back of his hand as they continue, just glad to see his Kossy happy again*

Master: *Smiles more, always loving that feeling of his thumb over his hand so much* *Nuzzles his shoulder a little, sighing deeply*

Doctor: *Sighs too, loving the way he nuzzles, and nuzzles him back a little* *Reaches the kitchen and again opens the door for him, grinning*

Master: *Grins too, lifting his head and blushing slightly again* Such a gentleman... *Winks and grins more, leading him into the kitchen*

Doctor: *Blushes a little too, not really knowing what to say to that, but grinning back, and following him into the kitchen*

Master: *Grins even more, absolutely loving it when he can make him blush* *Leans to kiss his cheek, sighing happily*

Doctor: *Grins more, leaning into the kiss, and moving over the kettle* You going to help, or cling to me and make it as awkward as possible then? *Grins and winks, teasing*

Master: *Laughs slightly* Well now you've said that, I'm going to cling to you and make it awkward, of course... *Grins and nuzzles his neck, winding his free arm around his waist*

Doctor: *Rolls his eyes fondly and sighs in mock despair at him, before grinning at him* Well good… *Winks, reaching to fill the kettle, and put it on to boil*

Master: *Grins even more, letting go of his hand to cling to him properly* *Leans on him, moving his head up to gently nip his jaw, immediately set on making it as difficult as possible for him*

Doctor: *Squeaks when he nips at his jaw, but is determined to not let himself be distracted by him -just- yet* *Starts the kettle boiling and then moves over towards the fridge… and -will- drag him if necessary*

Master: *Laughs as he squeaks, nuzzling his neck and shoulder* *Clings tighter when he moves, leaning back and hooking a leg around one of his to try and stop him*

Doctor: *Laughs a little too, feeling him try to stop him moving, shivering a little feeling his leg hooked around his like that and… -no- will -not- be distracted…* *Proceeds to start dragging him across the room*

Master: *Laughs again, still attempting to stop him, but doesn't put too much effort into it, wanting to let him drag him too* *Nips his jaw again, then licks up his neck*

Doctor: *Shivers again, with a slight squeak, when he nips, and can't hold back a bit of a moan when he licks his neck, trying -so- hard not to be distracted, but mmmmmnnn that feels good…* *Continues to make slow progress, dragging him across the room, reaching the fridge finally and getting some milk*

Master: *Grins as he moans, holding onto him more tightly, almost wrapping himself around him* *Nuzzles his cheek, licking along his jaw and up to his ear, nipping at it*

Doctor: *Blushes slightly, just he's so -very- good at distracting him* *Manages to refrain from squeaking this time, although so -nearly- drops the milk when he nips at his ear, blushing more* *Half expects him to take his feet off the floor and actually make him carry him around*

Master: *Laughs again when he sees him nearly drop the milk* *Nuzzles more, then moves up to his ear again and whispers* Distracting you, am I? *Nips his earlobe again* Good... *Grins*

Doctor: *Blushes, nearly dropping it again when he whispers in his ear and nips again, quickly putting it on the side so he doesn't* Just a little bit, yeah… *Blushes again* *Reaches to open the cupboard where the teacups are* I'd appreciate it if you -didn't- make me drop these though…

Master: *Licks his blushing cheek, grinning* Have to be more careful then, won't you... *Presses kisses along his jaw, but refrains from anything else while he's got the teacups*

Doctor: *Fake pouts at him* Not -my- fault you're distracting me… *Grins, leaning into his kisses slightly, and pulling two teacups out, moving them as swiftly as he can to put down, just in case he changes his mind*

Master: *Grins more, wrapping himself more tightly around him once he's put them down, and running one hand up to tangle in his hair* *Moves his kisses down his neck, licking over his pulse*

Doctor: *Blushes slightly, loving the way his hand tangles in his hair, and the kisses and lick, although he does seem to be getting dangerously close to his sensitive spot, and he can already tell that it's going to be painful rather than pleasurable if he does anything to it*

Master: *Runs his fingers though his hair, still licking* *Can feel that he's tensed just a little though, and after a moment realises why* *Tightens his arms around him, moving his head back to look at the mark for a moment, then leans in again and very, -very- gently kisses it, barely even touching, as if he were trying to kiss it better, wanting to show that he won't do anything to it until it doesn't hurt any more*

Doctor: *Blushes slightly, feeling him barely touch it, and knows what he's trying to show, and really does love him so much for it, although can't help but flinch a little involuntarily feeling his lips on it, because even that gentle touch is still noticeable* *Sighs, and reaches for some teabags and sugar as well, hearing the kettle starting to boil*

Master: *Feels bad when it still makes him flinch, and moves his head away, just resting it on his shoulder again* *Sighs too, watching him*

Doctor: *Turns his head seeing him move his head away out of the corner of his eye* Kos…?

Master: *Looks up at him* *Softly* Sorry... *Loosens his grip on him a little, leaning less heavily*

Doctor: *Bites his lip for a moment* It's okay Kos… I know what you meant by it, and I love you so much for that… I didn't expect it to still be that tender… *Smiles* You keep going…

Master: *Relaxes a little as he says that* Didn't mean to make it hurt... *Moves his head closer again, pressing a long kiss to his neck, away from the sensitive spot*

Doctor: *Smiles and nods* I know you didn't… I told you, I didn't think it was still -that- bad, so how were you to know it would hurt? *Smiles, moaning softly again when he kisses his neck*

Master: *Smiles a little too* Won't go near it again... *Nuzzles, adoring his moan, and licks along his jaw, rapidly regaining confidence*

Doctor: *Smiles more* Thank you love… *Sighs, blushing a little again, but just loving what he's doing so much* *Reaches for the kettle, hearing it finish boiling, moving to pour them a cup each*

Master: *Smiles again, wrapping his arms more tightly around him, clinging again* *Nuzzles his cheek, licking a little, then kisses and moans softly*

Doctor: *Smiles more, loving to feel his arms around him, and shivers at that gorgeous moan, quickly putting the kettle down once he's poured the cups, and longs to make him do that again*

Master: *Grins as he feels him shiver, nuzzling again, then returns to his ear* *Nips gently, then licks down to the lobe and sucks on it a little*

Doctor: *Adds milk and sugar to their tea, squealing again when he nips his ear, blushing slightly and moaning softly too* Kossss…

Master: *Laughs as he squeals, nipping again, and shivers slightly when he moans his name* *Whispers* Yes? *Grins*

Doctor: *Blushes a little more* Mmmmm, is good… *Grins* And your tea's ready… *Turns his head to wink at him, grinning*

Master: *Grins more* Good... *Doesn't stop what he's doing though, continuing to nuzzle and lick as much of his skin as he can*

Doctor: *Moans softly again, it feels so -good-* *Adores the way he's licking and nuzzling so much, not really wanting him to stop* Do you want your tea love, or do you intend to just eat me instead? *Grins*

Master: *Grins again* Mmmm... I think I'll eat you after the tea... *Licks him again with a soft moan* You taste so good... *Grins more*

Doctor: *Blushes* Why am I not surprised? *Moans softly too in response* And not as good as you taste… *Grins more too, reaching to push a cup towards him* Well then, if that's the case, maybe you should have your tea?

Master: *Laughs softly* Nothing tastes as good as you... *Nuzzles him again before reluctantly letting go* Maybe I should... *Grins, picking up the tea, staying close to him though*

Doctor: *Reaches for his too, and moves towards the table slowly, wanting to sit down, although still wanting to be close really*

Master: *Follows him, sitting down next to him and making a start on his tea* *sighs, looking up at him, unable to take his eyes off him*